um wow. the mommy game changes completely when you go back to work. i am too busy at work to think about him too much or to miss him too badly (thank goodness) but then i am so exhausted when i get home that i feel like i can't enjoy him. i play with him constantly but find myself getting really excited the closer it gets to his bedtime. (i feel horrible saying that but it's true). i hope i get used to it and eventually will not be so tired when i get home.
on top of being tired i feel guilty for not being miserable at work. i feel like i should wish i were home the whole time i am there but i don't. even though work is exhausting (EXHAUSTING!) i am happy (ok, happy is a strong word for work. let's use content). i am content there. i guess i should be happy that i'm not miserable. (that's a funny sentence)
my voice is tired from all the talking and singing. i can now get through my "first day spiel" in 15 minutes instead of 30 because i've done it 15 times now. (i have to do it 7 more times tomorrow and then i'm done).
anyway. i was going to write more but mike is lightning fast at the bath and book (i wish he'd take a little longer) so it's time to feed daniel........
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